Saturday, July 08, 2006

Phantom of Shame


Well...I've been trying to write a poem for some time now. It;s been too long since i did. I wrote a poem maybe a year ago, called "Leave me alone". It meant so much to me. I don't know if I posted it here or not. I'll check and maybe post it, as this blog of mine is becoming my only plave where I preserve any poetry of mine. So anyway, being stuck between 4 walls, spells linliness to me. Now, I know my wicked brain. It becomes very active during moments of lonliness and I feel some how controlled by this freak inside of me. Next thing, I see myself unintentially starting to write. I never knew I could write poems. I mean come on, a chemical engineer nerd...doesn't click, right. Well, it took me long time to figure out that I have a feel for writing...specially gothic poetry.

So, anyway, this is my latest gothic poem after a long time of waiting for it to evolve.


I don't know why I feel
The way that I do now.
Confused, lost in emotions
Never wondered how

Once upon a time,
I was an innocent man
But now, no forgiveness
Eternal burning as hell began.

I'm reaching out into a world
I can no longer see.
Eager to one day meet the man
I used to know as me.

As death points to me
Throws me in darkness,
Comforts my angry soul
Never realized I’m so lifeless

Urging me to be calm
Guiding me through the road.
I cannot see any light
Emotions eager to explode

This freak stands all alone,
Staring through eyes of dark.
Wondering whats to be done
Or what to even embark

Ooooh this life of mine
I used to know so well,
The trail of my existence
has turned into a hell.

I'm lost in my curse of mortality,
I'm overwhelmed by my tears,
I'm falling from this unholy sky
As my soul is filled with fears.

The wickedness deep inside me,
Isolated in this black hole,
I'm searching for an end to this,
For they truly control my soul.

I wish the demon departs my mind,
Torturing me beyond any mending.
I know that this can only be possible,
By bring my life to an ending.

Hidden behind that mask,
I am a burning flame,
Disguises cannot forever last,
But I am the phantom....of shame.

AAA 7/9/06

11 comments:

eyad said...

wow, I like your poem, I like poetry,you haven't wrote for one year, it was last week when i wrote a poem after 9 years,but it was in Arabic titled "The doll",
keep writing,

Bo3Bo3 said...

oh thanks eyad. I did write few poems about love lately, but this gothic poetry..i think it's been a couple of months.
Thanks dude

hamede said...

Hy bo3bo3 good one my man.

Bo3Bo3 said...

Hamede

thanks my friend hope u liked it.

SimSim said...

well I wish I can write poems :( they can heal ur wounds sometimes ....

nice one Bo3Bo3 :give:

adib said...

nice poem man

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layal said...

أتمني ان نتبنى جميعا كمدونين كلمه واحده بتاريخ واحد نحدد فيه رأينا للعالم اجمع
اتمني ان ندون مدونه واحد بتاريخ 27/07/2006
كلنا كمدونين نكرر عباره واحده
كلنا مع لبنان وفلسطين ضد اسرائيل والمحتلين
بالعربي بالانجليزي المهم نسمع صوتنا للعالم
وان لم نستطيع حمل السلاح فالنحمل الكلمه
وبأي لغة نستطيع نشرها
بالإنجليزية
We are with Lebanon and Palestine against Israel and occupiers
والفرنسية
Nous sommes avec tous le Liban et la Palestine contre l’Israel et les occupants
والألمانية
Wir sind zusammen mit dem Libanon und Palästina gegen Israel und Besatzer
والإسبانية
Somos todos con Líbano y Palestina contra Israel e inquilinos
والصينية
我们都是同黎巴嫩和巴勒斯坦对以色列占领者
واليابانية
私達はイスラエル共和国および占有者に対してレバノンおよ
びパレスチナとのすべてである
تحياتي للجميع

Jaz said...

Ya zalamih 2ana 3aref 3annak 2inta o 2il dark poetry ta3tak..

ya 2a5y 2oktoblak shi mofre7.. masaln..

na7no ni7ib 2il 7yat.. we don't?! do we?> :D

Happy love said...

nice 1 bo3bo3..
Have i told you b4 that i like the way you write..btejtheb el wa7ad lal a5er...
:)

Bo3Bo3 said...

simsim
thanks

adib
thanks buddy

jonh neo
thanks, I'll check urs now, u sound very interesting


Layal
great words, thanks

Jaz
lool dude, I know u better

Happy love
thats just because ur sweet and nice